i dont need you Lyrics

Close my eyes

Hold my tongue

She is my only one

I lie awake at night trying to understand

I had to take a life to love you

Why fake a smile

Why take a hand that embraced a knife to say I love you

Awake at night trying to understand

Like if I play it right then maybe I could keep you

And baby maybe I could make a plan

But if you don't want me, maybe I don't need you

Maybe I don't, I don't

I don't need you

Maybe I don't, I don't

I don't need you

Maybe I don't, I don't

I don't need you

Maybe I don't, I don't

I don't, I don't

Dead in the middle of night

Distracted by

This creeping feeling maybe I'm not acting right

My head is riddled with lies

Belittling thoughts like

I am not fit to be loved

Or I shouldn't be here at all

So I walk out the door in the dark

And I stand in the street and I talk to the stars

First I took a look at the house for a moment to ponder

Then looked at my car

This asphalt is hard on my feet

The streetlight above is a spotlight on me

Here alone in the night I am free

I wonder if this is the way it should be

Inside of the house I had fled is a bed made for two where my lovely is sleeping

What do I want for myself

What if I wanted to leave

The guilt that would follow my wake is the weight of the sky that I stand underneath

I walk to the bed where she lied

I kiss her goodnight and I join her to sleep

Far from balanced these indulgences surrounding me

And the man I am is someone I'm not proud to be

I'm in love with you but struggle so to show you how

I am stuck in love and I can't seem to make it out

Far from balanced these indulgences surrounding me (drowning me)

And the man I am is someone I'm not proud to be

I'm in love with you but struggle so to show you how

I am stuck in love and I can't seem to make it out

I lie awake at night trying to understand

I had to take a life to love you

Why fake a smile

Why take a hand that embraced a knife to say I love you