Pretending Lyrics

I know about the pictures you deleted

From the time when you wanted lives with me

And all of these things that I know I shouldn't tell you

That only now I am remembering

I hate the way you said I didn't want you

Since you looked for ways that you could let me go

But it's hurtful to think that the stories I lived

You replaced with narratives that I don't know

Lookin' through pictures

Of my future wedding ring

But I'm only eighteen now

Should've known it didn't mean a thing

Playin' house on the weekends

Was only just pretending

Like a really cruel, alluring play

"Pretending to be in love with me"

Oh...

I hate I couldn't feel things like a person

Cause god forbid I feel something today

Like sitting in the confidence and joy

Doesn't also have a little bit of pain

You said that I was somehow wrong

For not giving unconditional love

When I'd felt and I'd seen all that "love" that you give

Ripping out all the flowers with weeding gloves

Lookin' through pictures

Of my future wedding ring

But I'm only eighteen now

Should've known it didn't mean a thing

Playin' house on the weekends

Was only just pretending

Like a really cruel, alluring play

"Pretending to be in love with me"

I never thought I'd have to put my defense up

After defending you for so long

You think they're all obsessed with you

But Darlin', how you are wrong