Scary Obsession Lyrics

I just got back from my therapy session

My therapist she said I'm close to depression

Yeah I really get it

But I gotta scary obsession of feeling depressed

I know it's crazy but lately I'm feeling

Like I'm only happy when I'm walking towards a toxic direction

I guess she's right

I might be close to depression

I' m feeling the pressure

Cause that can't be me

Used to be happy but now I can't see

Pressin' the buttons but can't find delete

Yeah it feels like im pressin'

Repeat and repeat and repeat

Yeah I've fallen too deep

I' m so fuckin' sick of all thes people looking

Thinking I'm ok when I'm not

Cause it's fuckin' me up

Yeah it fucks with my head

Yeah its tearin' me fuckin' apart

I got these pills in my right hand

And some white lines on my night stand

Fillin' the cup with some white wine

That I don't like but it's alright

I'm caught up in the fast life

To save me from my past life

I said it was the last time

But I keep havin' red eyes

Lost all my connection to the people that I love

Way back in the days yeah I guess I was seven

Waking up watchin' how my parents keep the fight for possession

Yeah that shit is hard I got it still in my presence

I stare at these sealings

I start to hear demons

They got my attention

I guess they're my friends now

They said that I need em

I'm scared of the feeling

But I wanna keep em

Fuck

I really thought that Imma solve their solve their problems

I really thought that Imma keep that promise

I was a lost boy in all the drama

I know they love me but I got this trauma

No I do not get it cause all of the love I be getting

It feels like rejection and I'm never feelin' enough

No matter the age it fucks with your head

I got these pills in my right hand

And some white lines on my night stand

Fillin' the cup with some white wine

That I don't like but it's alright

I'm caught up in the fast life

To save me from my past life

I said it was the last time

But I keep havin' red eyes

Yeah I am so sick of my pain so I'm taking this glass

And I break it in half with my fist

Take my phone and I send you the pics

I'm feelin' sorry for all that I did

I don't like the blood but I'm proud of the scars

Please don't cry cause the voices in my head made me do it

I got these pills in my right hand

And some white lines on my night stand

Fillin' the cup with some white wine

That I don't like but it's alright

I'm caught up in the fast life

To save me from my past life

I said it was the last time

But I keep having

I got these pills in my right hand

And some white lines on my night stand

Fillin' the cup with some white wine

That I don't like but it's alright

I'm caught up in the fast life

To save me from my past life

I wish I didn't get high

But I keep havin'