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I wish I was different

The way I check my phone every five

Just to see if I'm the one that they're Missing

All my plans were just a vision

With a white picket fence

And a man that knows how to listen

Isn't it strange

When your own brain

Turns on you

Nothings the same

Since that day

He turned me blue

To have all of the things I want

A mind that doesn't think so much

To know a different kind of love

Where I don't doubt that I'm enough

A different life doesn't sound bad

All of the things I wish I had

But who I am I can't take back

I can't take it back

Oh, I wish I was different

Every time that I am alone

No one knows

All the things that I'm actually feeling

And I go out every weekend

To make everyone laugh

So they don't see the way that I'm Actually bleeding

Isn't it strange

When your own brain

Turns on you

Nothings the same

Since that day

He turned me blue

To have all of the things I want

A mind that doesn't think so much

To know a different kind of love

Where I don't doubt that I'm enough

A different life doesn't sound bad

All of the things I wish I had

But who I am I can't take back

I can't take it back

Isn't it funny, honey

With all of the money

All of these friends

Oh, I'm still lonely

All the things I lack

And I can't take it back

Isn't it crazy, baby

With all that I'm making

Everyone's talking but

I'm still faking

I know that I'm off track

And I can't take it back

I wish I was different

The way I check my phone every five

Just to see if I'm the one that they're Missing