dark solace Lyrics

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Run that shit up nn-fi

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Yo

I thought this was bliss but it's honestly not

I'm just alone with my thoughts

I'm stuck in the dark and I want it to stop

But the light of the day's always pissing me off

But I made a choice

I did the shit that I did

I love the way that I live

But I hate the way that I lie alone in my bed because sleeping without her just feels like a sin

But I'm not a sim

No one is pulling my strings

I'm my own god and I feel like a king

It's narcissistic but masochistic because I suffer when I think about it

And to my pain I'm a simp

I drain while I wish

I'm just so sick of this shit

But I'm talking the cap on the ship

I care more about drip even when I'm gon dip

And I'm looking good when I'm feeling like shit

And I wanna make an empty void in my mind

But there's an empty void in the space and the time

And I'm tryna survive

But wasting my day away feels like I'm just wasting my life

Every night I'm up 'til 5

Alone in the dark I feel alive

When I'm in solace I feel I can try

Out of her arms I don't wanna cry

Out of her arms I don't wanna die

I just wanna look in her eyes and feel alright

Yo

She doesn't count when I say I need my space

Dark solace with her is where I'm most at peace

My numbers going up so I hope they hold pace

I've put in all this time so I wanna get a place

But I'm still in the basement

So far 2023 wasn't what I wanted it to be

Spent all of my time now i'm out 365 reasons why I never caved

And I wish I never stayed

Slap to my face, man, I feel like Nick Cage

Etched in my skin got me feeling engraved

Pedal to the metal kept me stuck in the in cage

Tryna mould it like Play-Doh but I'm stuck in his cave

I can't dream the other side when I'm tryna get paid

Like working everyday just makes the weeks fly away

Yeah

That's why it's November

Wish I could take it back to March but I can't remember

How the steps go

More than 12 for my mental

I let go

That's that number 2 like a pencil

Popping up in my rear like an endo

I just want this year to end though

I wrote this quick on my lunch break

Before I go back in the dunk tank

Getting flash backs to police coming home from the drunk tank

Had him sleep up in the basement so I couldn't drop mukbangs

But now I got plates on plates

Except none of its finished 'cause the homies take days on days before they send it

And I'll quit pretending that I don't care

I wish that I didn't but my part's finished and their thumbs are twiddlin'

But maybe I'm trippin

Maybe it's different

It sucks being gifted when nobody's giving

It suck's always driving when nobody's driven

Kay, see undercover with the RayBands on my nightstand

Always use my right hand when I'm gripping the mic stand

So I might stand

But I'll probably take a seat

'Cause I'm so fucking sick of always standing on my feet

But I can't bring myself to ever drop down on my knees

Only 1 for her but that shit is not free

Not for me

'Cause she's a queen

So give me streams, yeah

So we can make money

You think that I'm joking because I'm tryna be funny

You hear me scream: "yeah"

And watch me dance like dummy

We need food in our tummies

That's a wrap like a mummy

Dark solace is bliss

Yo, it honestly is

Emo boy and goth girl

Yeah, we know we're the shit

And we're staying at home

Playing games on our own

That's the life we wanna live

We're together alone

Yeah