home lake Lyrics

Every time I look up and see you there

I wanna go away and just not care

I wanna disappear till nothing's there

I wanna disintegrate into thin air

I feel like I've already died five times before

And I feel like this world has no more doors

I knock on one, it doesn't open for me

It's usually cause there's something wrong with me

Knock, knock, knock, knock, knock on the door

Nobody answering me anymore

More, more, take anymore

Drowning my body and stabbing my core

How much more pain can I take?

Staying awake too late

Waiting for false hope that will never happen

How much more drowning can I take

In this cold, freezing lake

How many more mistakes can I take

Before I give up completely

This lake is my home

This lake is my home

The lake that's freezing cold, I hate my home

I hate the lake that controls me

My fate, my destiny is controlled

By that home, by that freezing cold

Lake I suffer down in pain cause oh

Save me from my hope

Save me from my hate

Save me from my self-suffering

My self-inflicted emotional pain

I hate, my lake

The place, I was born in

I hate who I am where I'm from

Everything that I have done

Everything that has happened

I hate myself

No longer can I pretend

I hate who I am where I'm from and

Everything that I have done

I hate my self hell

I can't figure out how to love myself