i breathe right now: forever Lyrics

I can't feel my fingers, every breath I don't take, impossibly heavy in its weightlessness

A black hole, an anchor, chaining me to a single moment of time

I watched my body move on

I watched it stride into the distance with purpose, like, like it had something to be

Without me

Its shadow remains, burned into the crevices between forgotten atoms

I've spent every year of this moment staring at it, trying to grasp its thoughts

They ignore me

I'm not human enough

A frozen wind blows straight through me

The only truth left, holding me together, sucking empty mass into a whirlwind of impossible light

A tortured gleam holding on, keeping this moment from fading to black, like forcing someone's eyes open, trapping the world in something and nothing

A world vast, and yet so infinitely tiny it couldn't possibly exist

I exist