Withoutchu (Radio Edit) Lyrics

Live withoutchu

I did it witoutchu

Memories haunt

Cause I still think aboutchu

Remember they said what I'd never amount to

Stuck by my side

Said we'd figure it out boo

Silenced the drama they spoke loud aboutchu

Read me yo truth so I'll never renounce you

Kept it 2real ain't no way I could doubt you

Darkest of nights had to claw my way out through

Depression set in we was goin through our drama

Couldn't talk to my friends held it back from my own mama

No wand in my hand like I'm cosmo or wanda

Can't wish it away just head first all my problems

Thank God I ain't bury myself in a bottle

Or chop down some trees & burn up my persona

The pain in my eyes only thing that I foster

My kids on my heart sayin daddy you stronger

"Daddy don't quit everything will get better

We love you today & we'll love you forever"

"F.O.E right you meant every letter

Then daddy get up don't you quit no not ever"

Fallin apart every moment we separate

I had to boss up put myself back together

God gave me three blessings that taught me a lesson

"DADDY DON'T QUIT"

I think I get the message

Back on my knees every time I start stressing

My problems in 3's like I never expected

My mama got sick diagnosed with dementia

Biological too heart attacks almost killed her My pops breaking down wit problems he won't speak on

The world on my shoulders nobody to lean on

The fruits of my labor ain't even in season

If this is my karma Lord gimme a reason

I conquered the giants stood tall & prevailed

But I'm trapped on this planet my hell in a cell

My sister passed on then God gave me a daughter

My stepdaddy too for I told em I love em

Got blessed wit a son pray he don't know my struggle

I'm battling demons I keep undercover

Disguising my pain wit a smile for my brothers

Unmaskin the trauma felt to my mother

"Boy get off the ground

If you trip fall or stumble

You hold yo head high

Get back up & recover"

I swear everyday it feel more like a jungle

But can't seem to get to the root of my problems

"You made it this far & im proud thatchu did it

So how you gone quit at the very beginning"

I did all I can so dad what am I missing

"Just handle yo business"

I'm back on my mission

I'm back on my grizzle

Releasin what's in me

I'm goin all out I don't care if it kill me

I'm losin my dawgs to the streets or in prison

Or drowning in bottles

Depression is serious

Yo mental is something hits harder than bullets

I'm talkin to anyone still goin through it

That gun to yo head cock it back

Don't you do it

We all gotta voice I suggest that you use it

Memories hauntin

Triggers & trauma

Gotta be strong & move on

That's the motto

PTSD from some things I won't speak on

My life is a sermon I probably could preach on

Yay though I walk through the valleys of death

I will fear no more evil including myself

Tears in my eyes as I hold out my chest

Stories from every scar I possess

The darkness inside me took hold tryna blind me

Kept to myself hoping shadows would hide me

Whenever I'm lost Lord I pray that you found me

Wit voices to guide me & love all around me

My heart speakin truth, every vein in me pounding

The voices inside of my head speaking loudly

They echo through time & my space is surrounded

Immortal I stand but this moment's astounding