Halo ft. Fndme. Lyrics

I've been at war

Fear my subconscious

Turn off all my thoughts

I'm hiding too much in my closet

These skeletons coming for more

They're haunting me back where I sleep

I'm wearing a mask filled with thorns

And playing the role to a tee

But I wish anybody but me

Could feel like stone

Beside you I feel my lungs let go

Call an S.O.S

I need get better

Under duress

Feeling untethered

S.O.S

We said forever

I never meant it

My smiling and my suffering's the same to you

You never said it but I think your mind's made up, now

I've been wasting days on you

Pretending you're an angel

Think I see your halo

Underneath the plans you drew

Never gave a damn where I'd end up, now

Love is just a game, you lose

Well I'm not tryna play like everything's okay, when I'm feeling numb

Even monsters have friends in the dark

Hearing voices instead of my heartbeat

Conversations I can't be a part

Always crowding me out like a black sheep

Ethylbenzene

Burning up in my veins

Clawing up in my brain

Blowing up I'm unchanged

Falling out of the frame

Growing up all the same like

It's okay if we keep going different ways

I'm working on myself and hoping you can say the same

If I've been a fool

I don't know if I'd even know

Cause everyone thinks that they're smarter than everyone else

And I know that it's false

When I wasn't sure, well, you told me

When I'm insecure you would hold me

And now I'm all lost in this moment

Promises made are the promises broken

My smiling and my suffering's the same to you

You never said it but I think your mind's made up, now

I've been wasting days on you

Pretending you're an angel

Think I see your halo

Underneath the plans you drew

Never gave a damn where I'd end up, now

Love is just a game you lose

And I'm not tryna play, like

Everything's okay, when I'm feeling numb

I'm missing minutes in my memories

And talking bout forgiveness when it's plain to see

You ain't no friend to me

Taking all my dopamine

Setting boundaries

You've been trying to contravene, yeah

You're a masterpiece, Self-proclaimed, untouchable

I'm a cavity, venom in your glycerol

But don't you know your wings were never made of gold

Keep pushing poison down the rabbit hole