Can't Forgive Myself Lyrics

I know, I'm waiting

For the reaper to come and take me

I know, I'm hanging

By a thread in my room I'm fading

And I feel like I'm barely alive

Like my purpose was to die

I wish I had a story to tell

But I can't forgive myself

I know I need help

I can't forgive myself

Fuck my mental health

I keep hearing bells

I know I'm going to hell

I can't forgive myself

Eyes burn, dim light

I know I won't sleep tonight

Head turns, in eye sight

A reflection in the mirror waves goodbye

I used to think that I was fine

And then I lost track of time

Threw my wishes in the well

But I can't forgive myself

I know I need help

I can't forgive myself

Fuck my mental health

I keep hearing bells

I know I'm going to hell

I can't forgive myself

I fucked it up, that's what I'm gonna tell myself

I fucked it up, that's what I'm gonna tell myself

I fucked it up, that's what I'm gonna tell myself

I fucked it up, that's what I'm gonna tell myself

Straight face, I lied

Just told you that I tried

I know, you hate me

Don't worry I'll be leaving

Useless dreams fill my mind

Lucid nightmares all the time

Take my heart and empty shell

'Cause I can't forgive myself

I know I need help

I can't forgive myself

Fuck my mental health

I keep hearing bells

I know I'm going to hell

I can't forgive myself