The Thing that I Wanted Lyrics

I rolled two hearts just like dice

'cross the table and lost

I was thinking about winning

But never considered the cost

A gambler that's over his head

Never knows when to go home

'Till all of the veins he can bleed

Have been bled to the bone

Nothing in my history

Prepared me for love

You thought I was sure of myself

I was making it up

Everything I planned to do

Was too late or wasn't enough

Now my hope's like the dried residue

In a throw-away cup

I have my pride

I have my space

I have the freedom to go anyplace

I have my stories

I have my truth

But thing that I wanted was you

You looked at me like a cat

Crawling in from the rain

With a pity you liked to call love

but tinged with disdain

You waited for me to step up

While I waited for something to change

Now I'm like the host of a party

When nobody came