Letter To My Pops Lyrics

Now I was talking to my pops the other day and he asked me, he said, uh, he said, man

I'm listening to your music and I can tell that you're dealing with some things

You want talk about anything

I started to get real passionate on that phone call, you know

But unfortunately, we ain't get to finish because I had some other shit to do, you

Know what I'm saying, but look

Them ain't raindrops, them my tears falling

That's the pain that I felt since I was a toddler

And this the voice of a man that ain't scared to say he miss his father

A lot of times I wish I was with you instead of my mama

So to answer your question, yeah, I got some shit on my chest

You would too if you done been where I been

I remember being a kid, mama leaving me with different men

But I couldn't stay with you. How they supposed to make me feel

If I see this one specific nigga, I'm killing him, no doubt about it

Would tell my mama some things, but she would doubt it

Wanted to tell her, fuck that nigga

But before I could, she would go and fuck that nigga

Them was the days I wish grandma and granddaddy ain't have to work

Or you had a better relationship with her

Remember waking up choking, she was nowhere in sight

She finally hit the lights and told me shut the fuck up as I was grasping for life

Her and Cornell was in the other room trying to patch up a fight

And she was gonna give me something to cry about if I ain't be quiet

That's just the ant pile on top of mount everest

Say she love me but I always question it

I'm heartbroken, there's some shit I can't cope with

That's why Danielle don't understand why I pick and choose who I get close with

She don't understand why I wander off mid-conversation

'Cause certain shit take me back to certain places

Or, she don't understand why I'm so protective over Peyton

See, I don't ever want to be on your end of this conversation

Him pouring his heart out, and there's nothing I can do

Feeling like as a father I ain't do all I can do

But I don't blame you, you did what you was allowed to do

And if we look at it, you did what I allowed you to