phobophobia. Lyrics

Hearing the birds out the window

I cannot get up it's eleven AM and I stare

At the blank wall through my room I see sun through the curtains

Then softly I whisper: "I'm there"

Knock over bottles from last day

The coldness from emptiness crawls up my spine but I chose

Not to break down today

Not just to hide today

Not just to be all alone in my room

Walk in the kitchen and make up a smile

Neglecting the food because I wanna get high

Spending hours doing nothing

Just these thoughts on my mind

Hide in my room because the noises arrive

Look in the mirror and stare in my eyes

"What is wrong with you?"

"Why can't you be like everyone would like?"

Death is on my, death is on my mind

I cannot be, I cannot be

Everyone will die one day at night

Mama is it time?

Do I have to sleep at night?

I feel so alive

Crawling through the day

But at night I feel light

Put a gun to my head

Put the bottle to my lips and fly

Because it's all in, it's all in

It's all in my fucking mind

Building me up while I'm breaking alive

I'm not worth all your time please just leave my side

I'm nothing that tries to be something

That tries to be nothing

That tries to be happy when he

Walk in the kitchen and make up a smile

Neglecting the food because I wanna get high

Spending hours doing nothing

Just these thoughts on my mind

Hide in my room because the noises arrive

Look in the mirror and stare in my eyes

"What is wrong with you?"

"Why can't you be like everyone would like?"

Walk in the kitchen and make up a smile

Neglecting the food because I wanna get high

Spending hours doing nothing

Just these thoughts on my mind

Hide in my room because the noises arrive

Look in the mirror and stare in my eyes

"What is wrong with you?"

"Why can't you be like everyone would like?"

Death is on my, death is on my mind

I cannot be, I cannot be

Everyone will die one day at night

Mama is it time?