NEW FOLD (Outro) Lyrics

I'm indirectly feelin' blamed

I'm indirectly feelin' shamed

I'm indirectly still amazed at how my passion's still the same

How I'm learnin' all the secrets to the game

When I speak, revealin' pain

When I speak, revealin' change, just so y'all are entertained

And y'all should feel ashamed, cause you require more

I'm givin' life to art while it's the very thing I'm dyin' for

Distorted memories of me before I wrote a rhyme or

Lied for my pride, forgettin' what I was designed for

Now I push myself out of bed at 3 AM

Sheets sunk in sweat, I'm worried bout my life and where I've been

Anxiety levels risin', I'm

thinkin' brother, not again

Phone chargin', I reach over, I dial and call a friend, but

Nobody pickin' up

I realize I'm all alone and that it sucks, but

I'm droppin' to my knees, I'm usin' prayer as a crutch

Cup overflowin', God, if it's your will, let it be done, but

Growin' up, we wasn't privileged

Growin' up, we had to eat in smaller portions, cause the food and cash was limited,

Everyday was a new predicament, predicted it, when I would go to sleep, watchin' my mom disfigured

And I figured that the alcohol would trigger him

I trickle in, tryna grab a pad and pen, then again

Isolate myself and play the beat and get the scribbling my feelings in

I visited a place where dreams is possible and bigger than

Life itself and where my mom and family was livin' in

Self-limited, self-centered

And, undisciplined, inhibited, unforgiving and, this the behavior that I elicited, committed it

So growin' up, I had the underdog mentality

It's me against the world, wasn't no fallacy

Analogies, I had in my head led to insanity, expressed myself like no one listening

Using profanity

Crazy