Backstabbed ft. Mikayla Hamilton & Shaft Lyrics

I thought we could figure this out

But then you go, and you cut me down

It's funny how y'all left me for dead

I've been stuck in my head, can't get out of my bed

So I'm closer to living my dreams

I know that everything's not what it seems

Overthinking, yeah, that's typical me

They're asking what's wrong, I don't know what they mean

Feels like I'm losing my grip and my hype

I know that nothing happens overnight

Hate being cold, but it feels so right

If you shot me down, I would drip out ice

That's a bar and a half worth, twenty-five to life

Thought about ending it the other night

With hopes of my grandma standing in the light

How could I ever reach the height of my favorites

Without any patience, but more dedication

Than anyone waiting to hop into action

You think you're gonna blow up with all this rapping

Look, I don't know, but we'll see what happens

Can't trust my circle, cause people backstabbing

But growing up is really the assassin

My mouth wired shut from the writers block

Like Kanye's crash, man, this shit's no bluff

Stuck in the past, and I've had enough

Will I ever last, or will I watch my whole world go and collapse

I thought we could figure this out

But then you go, and you cut me down

Remember when you said you'd always be around

Told me that you'd forever hold me down

Guess we'll never figure this out

Back when mom and dad would fight everyday

I thought that shit was normal, what can I say

Each fight getting more worse than the last

Don't want my future to be like my past

Maybe that's why I always sound violent

Coming from a home that felt like a riot

I don't make my music just so you can buy it

I make it so you can feel my lyrics, my spirit, my soul

And there's no telling how far I would go just get to the top

Scared I'll be stuck at the bottom and left here to rot

So I've been switching my plot

Back all hunched from the weight on my shoulders

Really sick of feeling dead when I am sober

Life is a high with no way of closure

You wanted the real, now the wait is over

And I've been to hell and back one too many times

One too many friends, told too many lies

And it took too long for me to realize

That they were never really on my side

And I hate that cause I loved them

But I guess now it's fuck them

Can't wake them up, they sleeping

They need me, I don't need them

I thought we could figure this out

But then you go and you cut me down

Remember when you said you'd always be around

Told me that you'd forever hold me down

Guess we'll never figure this out