PAIN Lyrics

Hi my name is, I'm an alcoholic

I don't even have a preference

If it's liquor, I'll demolish

I'll be on it till I'm finished

Give a fuck if I'ma vomit

I've been like this since a nigga started college

Matter fact, I think I got it from my dad

Drinking whiskey while he beat me and my mama

Every time we always got that nigga mad

When he died from liver cancer, man

I was kinda glad, but thinking back

He did it from the pressures that he had

Anyway, it's in the past, but it lingers in my brain

So I guess I drink so I never feel the same

So I never feel the pain, it's escape from my reality

Every time I drink, it's like I step into a fantasy

And I just wanna one day find The cup that

Does stop

The pain, the pain

Hi my name is, I'm a nymphomaniac

I stay fucking on fuck niggas and

I'm okay with that(oh yeah okay with that)

My brain good, but I got more of amazing ass

(Ooh yeah the greatest ass)

So I figured I'd rather be getting paid with that

And all these hoes just hate the fact

I'm cashing out

Only God can judge my OnlyFans account

I think my uncle's the reason that it's what

I'm about

When I was seven, he touched me and

I ain't rat him out

But anyway, it's in the past But I guess that

I'm doing porn for more than just the cash

But so

I can take the chance for a moment

To escape from my reality

Every thrust made, I'm escaping to my fantasy

I just wanna one day

Find the fuck that does stop

The pain

Oh, I just wanna one day for the love

That does stop

The pain, the pain

Too many times, too many times I'm low, I'm low, I'm low, I'm low, I'm low

It's hard to make these confessions

So I won't say my name, it's worth in keeping you Guessin

I've got manic depression a bit, drug addicted and Shit

'Cause I'm always feeling like I ain't got reason to Live

But it is what it is,

I've been trying to self-destruct

Hang with my best friend from college and get Drunk

Or fuck on this nymph chick forever down the Fuck

She said she loved me, I'd be dumb to trust

Besides, I don't trust myself

Around drugs or sharp stuff, I cut myself

And if I focus for a moment, there's a moment

I escape from my reality

All I really want is just to stay inside that fantasy

But the fantasy ends quicker than it began

And with it is the pain and hate of who I am

What do normal people do when this sad

I know that heroin is bad

I just wanna, one day

Find the drug that could stop the pain

(I know that heroin is bad)

I just wanna love me

I heard that it could stop the pain