Hey, what's up Phil Lyrics

Hey, what's up, Phil

Can I call you Phil?

I hope so

I fucked up and I'll go and fucking do it again

The wrist got cut from all my fucking ignorance

Can't decide whether or not I wanna live this shit

My brains been scattered from all the pointlessness

Fucked up in the head, but I keep on moving forward

I've seen this all before, but I cannot just ignore it

I can't fucking help myself

I can't fucking help myself

I can't fucking help myself

It's torture

It's torture

It's torture

It's torture

I'll leave I want-

It's torture

It's torture

We kissed, we kissed, we kissed

We kissed in the foyer

She grabbed my arm

She told me don't fucking leave her

I thought I'd need her

But she got me deceiving

So I'm deleting all my trust it's bleeding

Like my wrist that I cut with the knife in my heart

My thoughts displaced and I'm fucked, but I don't give a fuck

It's all the trust, it's the trust that just got fucking lost

But I don't know

What to do or where to keep all my thoughts

Don't know where to keep all my thoughts

Oh no, where to keep all my thoughts

Don't know where to keep all my thoughts

I just killed myself with the gun that shit went-

Don't know where to keep all my thoughts

Yeah my brain blown open, my skull open

Thinking and it's leaking out, exploded

That shit, all over the floor

The walls, blood paints the curtains

Can't take this shit no more

It's fucking certain

I fucked up and I'll go and fucking do it again

The wrist got cut from all my fucking ignorance

Can't decide whether or not I wanna live this shit

My brains been scattered from all the pointlessness

Fucked up in the head, but I keep on moving forward

I've seen this all before, but I cannot just ignore it

I can't fucking help myself

I can't fucking help myself

I can't fucking help myself

It's torture

I don't know what I'm doing anymore in my life

I don't think I ever knew

I'm so lost

I don't know what I want

I don't understand myself

I don't understand other people

I'm afraid of myself and the world

And I have no idea what to do

Sometimes I feel like dying

And then

That same day an hour later

I'm ecstatic to be alive

Most of the time I feel absolutely nothing

I wish things were better

I wish my life had more meaning

I wish the world had more meaning

I can't stand the world

I can't stand people

I can't figure out shit

And I don't think I ever will

Hopefully I can just earn enough money to get by and survive

Some people have passion

Some people have dreams

But not everyone gets to have those

I see that now

Anyway, I hope you're doing alright Phil.

(I'm Awake)

(I'm Awake)