When I Go Down, Pt. 1 Lyrics

I'll tell you flat out

It hurts so much to think of this

So from my thoughts I will exclude

The very thing that

I hate more than everything is

The way I'm powerless

To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away

So many things that could've been much more

And I just pray

My problems go away if they're ignored

But that's not the way it works

No that's not the way it works

When I go down

I go down hard

And I take everything I've learned

And teach myself some disregard

When I go down

It hurts to hit the bottom

And of the things that got me there

I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can

Clear myself of this clouded mind

I'll watch myself settle down

Into a place where

Peace can search me out and find

That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away

The hope I had in friendships

I've thrown away

So many things that could have been much more

I've thrown away

The secret to find an end to this

And I just pray

My problems go away if they're ignored

But that's not the way it works

No that's not the way it works

When I go down

I go down hard

And I take everything I've learned

And teach myself some disregard

When I go down

It hurts to hit the bottom

And of the things that got me there

I think, if only I had fought them

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands

While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me

Reprimands me