I shouldn't be alive Lyrics

I wish that I could

Meet you for the first time again

I wish that you would

At least try to make amends

Wherever you are

Wherever you want me to be

So let me restart

So you can meet the new me

Same old mistakes

Same old addictions

Same old heartbreak

Blame expectations

Back to my dead end life

I shouldn't be alive

I'll never know what it feels like

To live past forty five

Mama I've failed you

How would I ever save you?

Papa I've shamed you

How would I ever repay you?

I'll never have a kid

She'll never suck my dick

I'll never really know what

I could accomplish

I guess that's really sad

You're all I ever had

I never thought my life would

End up so bad

Back to my dead end life

I shouldn't be alive

I'll end it all tonight

I shouldn't be alive

I'll never know what it feels like

To truly love a wife

My life at it's due date

My existence like a mistake

But everything is fine

All I needed was more time

First call for the last ride

But everything is alright

Take a chance in my glory days

Watch me crawl as I try to chase

Watch me fall cause I'm born this way

I'm so done with everything

I'm so done with everything

I'm so done with everything

I'm so done with everything

I'm not who I need to be

I'm not who I need to be

I'm not who I need to be

I'm not who I need to be

Only you know how I felt

Only you know how I felt

Only you know what it meant

Only you know what it meant

Only I know how this ends

Only I know how this ends

Only I know how this ends

Only I know how this ends

Only I know how this ends

Only I know how this ends

Only I know how this ends

Only I know how this ends