In my thoughts Lyrics

Hello Jimmy, this is Neil Carroll

I know that everybody who loves you feels you alike

Warming their hearts and guiding their path

You bring me back to a time of innocence

And I think the love of family and friends is most important

And will help us get through our darkest times

For that, we are grateful to you

God bless you, pal

And until we meet again

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I still reminisce on the better days

Lost some soldiers on the way, but I know they in a better place

My grandma asks me how I'm doing, can't tell her that I'm not okay

My heart been severed so many times, I cannot get a break

My papa asks to be cremated and leave his ashes in the lake

I know my love ones want me to hold my head up high, but sometimes my chin a scraped

We weren't wealthy, we weren't rich, had ramen noodles on my dinner plate

Sometimes it was hard to believe in God, but I still kept my faith

Before my kids would ever go without the Lord to take my breath away

Always been fighting for my life, police trying to build another case

They say life's about a dollar, so I take out long as I'm getting paid

But I take it to the box before I sit up in a dog cage

I'ma make sure my fam straight, then I'm going to see Johnny Dang

The way I love kicking shit instead of rap, I should've chose karate, man

If I knew Skyland would tell on me, I would've caught a body then

Cause I'm destined to be rich like my name was Roddy Gang

And you know my nigga Fish, he claiming rider gang

Can't make no cocaine without the lidocaine

Chain around my neck like a noose, but I just let it hang

I drink tequila just like juice, now, I can't feel a thing

I got old memories that still go through my brain

But I can't judge you on how you grieve and how you deal with pain

And if they mention me when I'm not around, just remember my name

Bitch, I'm named after a gun, so I got hella aim

They had me locked away in them chains, but I could never chain

Got in a shootout out West, they grazed my thumb, but I still shoot the same

Knocked a couple niggas out my way, but I thank they the blame

Can't have no codefendant, they might say my name

Thought my bitch was pregnant, but then her period came

Let's just clear the air

I looked over my shoulder and seen no one there

They say love and hate go together, but they don't compare

I'm from the Midwest, like Chirac, but I don't like the bears

Got stitches in my eyebrow, cause I fell off the stairs

I could spill out my whole heart, but nobody cares

I don't wanna hairy coochie, tell that bitch naire

I keep gamblin' with my life like it's true for dare

Lately been fightin' with my demons and they got me scared

Just been battlin' with my thoughts, I should've been prepared

Before I snitch on one of my guys, I get the chair

Cause I been playin' with that white boy, call em Conor

But I ain't talkin' O'Gregor

They wanted to, talked to three, but I can't hear no lecture

Wanted me to catch all the backlash, but I'm not no catcher

Chase after like a dog gettin a bone, but I couldn't even fetch her

She ran out of my time, but I can't even catch her

And I can't be mad at you, life taught me another lesson

But I ain't wanna call foul play, but I gotta contest it

But now I'm locked and loaded, I just feel congested

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