How Could You Lyrics

I'm all alone in this ocean full of people

I only hear your tone when the words feel so deceitful

Addicted to my phone cause I'm vain and it's the needle

Fell from grace and broke my funny bone, now laughing's feeling evil

I don't wanna break your heart but life is getting ugly

What hurts the most is knowing I have to lose you just to love me

And trusting my intentions with no intention to trust me

I pulled the knife but you only saw that it cut deep

How come I feel the guilt when I ain't even make the wounds

I'll carve your name into the hollow walls within this empty tomb

I'll spend my life chasing a feeling that can smell like your perfume

I only show myself at night, I guess I understand the moon

You watched as my best friend died in my arms

But you weren't there for me to bandage up my damage and scars

Maybe you were, but I never felt it

Or maybe I'm just broken and can't help being helpless

Like you wanted to start over but you never had the courage

So baby here's your chance, you were a flower going flourish

I wish this shit was easier, wish I felt more encouraged

Wish I could let go of this feeling and not hide it from the surface

And I'm not perfect, I won't ever even consider it

My thoughts alone can only prove I'm fluent in this gibberish

Maybe I've been destined for some things that I can't fathom

Maybe Eve just spit the apple and I'm punished just like Adam

Fuck it, love you enough to let you find something better

If you think that you deserve it, I won't stop you and that's ever

When I found you, I uncovered you and treated you like treasure

You loved me and you kept me like a promise

Like them letters that I wrote you

And I knew you

But I ain't even know you

I ain't even know you

How could you just watch as I drifted away

How could you just watch as I sit with a pain

How could you possibly not see it and not find an escape

How could you let me go and never even beg me to stay

How could you shatter everything that I thought that you were

How could I matter when I never got the thoughts I deserved

How could you take my heart for granted when I knew I was sure

How could you

No, no, no