7 Eight Lyrics

Yeah I just want shit to get better

I don't do well when I'm by myself I got issues

I sit alone and cry like why can't this be simple

I try to get it out and jot it down with this pencil

But sometimes it gets so difficult I wish I had a pistol just to

Bang and yeah that's the easy way

Never thought that I would get so low that I would contemplate

Leaving this place and leaving all of my pain

To all of the people that love me man this shit is insane

I think about when I was younger when my pops never showed up

I waited on the porch for hours but he never pulled up

All these insecurities started when I was so young

12 years old I took a pill and fell in love and drugs

Never loved myself, because I never knew how

Grown man now and I'm still trying to figure it out

All I know is I can never turn my back on my child

Even though I want to get a lost and never be found for real

How old is your daughter Uh my daughters eight now

She turned eight in July she let me talk to her on the phone and video chat

And yesterday I got to see her on video chat

And after the video chat um she said that was the last time I'm talking to her on the phone

I love my daughter and I tell her every day

That she's my favorite person just look at her precious face

I wish that me and her mother could both be on the same page

And get along a little bit better just for Nevaeh sake

I wish that we could start over and just get away

I'm sorry for everything I know I caused so much pain

I never meant to hurt you I'm a whole different person today

I promise you that I'm changing and every night when I pray

I pray that I don't get lost in my ways and never give up

Since I got clean I noticed when I've been missing

This last year has been hectic and I know that I was distant

But I'm never going back to the way that I was living

I just want to hear I love you I wish somebody would say it

That's why I tell my daughter every day she is amazing

She's the reason why I got off the pavement and started changing

I just want you to know how much I love you Nevaeh

Um I have to pay for the app through the court and it's like a 150 bucks

Dude your being like like your being like there's no reason to be like this

She just wants me to hurt she's trying to hurt me really that's all it is

Because I hurt her really bad