Insecurities Lyrics

When I was younger, always hated myself

I grew up older, had no one to reach out to help

11 years young, tried to take my own life

Ran to the kitchen looking for the sharpest knife

Looked in the mirror, told myself I wanted to die

Be a man, you know that real niggas cry

7th grade, yeah, thought that I was good

Hell nah, man, she left me for a rook (Yuh)

Down bad on my ass, had to get it on my own

Struggle late at night, crying all alone

Saved myself with a ball and a hoop

Started running track, kept me out the loop

8th grade, yeah, thought I found the one

Fell in love, she lit up like the sun (Yuh)

Always held it down when I needed someone

Two years later, rest in peace to Joeleon

3 days later, same girl left me

I was stranded, nowhere to be

Tears running down my face, I never got the message

Praying up to God, I'm asking all these fucking questions

2021, thought I found real love

Couple months later, ended in shove

18, feel like I'm 11

Dark mind, I want to go to heaven (Yuh)

Been fucked up, always had these problems

Never opened up, never could've solved them (Yuh)

Fast forward, 19, niggas still livin'

Ain't ever felt this way, man, it's been a minute

Thank you, mom, thank you, dad, had to thank my brothers

Sisters always held it down, man, they loved each other