subject to change Lyrics

Talking to myself, hide away, it don't numb the pain

Regret words and actions half of what I done and say

End of September messing with me it's a tough few days

Everything is in the air right now it's all subject to change

I miss peace, I miss comfort, I miss them dearly

I miss Tim, I miss Dan, I miss having them near me

I miss joy, I miss laughter, I miss having plans clear to me

I welcome pain, welcome hurt, as long as people hearing me

Trading love for music, that's a hopeless life

Pushing people away that's what I done most my life

Circle tight, open eyes, seeing this world cold as ice

Black hoodie and sweats when I write in my room because it's cold at night,

And every day I get more dead inside

Every morning I wake up just wanna lay in bed and hide

Memories and ghost haunt my every step at night

And I've always clung to hope through tough times, except tonight

I need clarity, need therapy, not just popularity

Ordinarily I'd take sincerity over prosperity

But temporarily I'm thinking bout posterity primarily

Forget dexterity and transparency the future ain't gon care bout me

Talking to myself, hide away, it don't numb the pain

Regret words and actions half of what I done and say

End of September messing with me it's a tough few days

Everything is in the air right now it's all subject to change

Talking to the mirror talking back it seems lately

But he ain't encouraging, in fact I think he hates me

But I can't tell for sure he won't speak plainly

All of this is driving me crazy