Cuts So Deep Lyrics

Ive never felt more alone then on the day you said you were leaving

Couldn't feel my mouth

But could feel my heart shatter into pieces

There isn't a word to explain how i'm feeling

The torment inside of me blinds me from seeing

A world without you i'm so lost without meaning

Trapped in exhausting self doubt that i can't peel off

Ive been tryna get myself together for weeks

Until i remember i'm never gunna be anything

Everything's so pointless i just wanna go sleep

Until i forget it or these pain killers do it for me

The lights go out and i can take my mask off and be me and i cry so hard on my own till i can't say words or breathe

This pain inside of me i can't pass on in the sheets

Still i distract myself with girls and drugs to fill cuts so deep

I just need a friend i just need a friend

The worst thing is i'd do it again i'd do it again

I'd take all this pain and agony that keeps me up in the night

Id take it all twice maybe three times if i could go back in time

I'm so ashamed of who i've now become and there's no one i can lean on

I'll take prescriptions till i'm numb

I'm so damaged i don't even feel like me Disassociating every time i go out i'm so lonely

All i can do is blame myself was i not enough for you

Was it my fault all this time

I know i'm not perfect all i can do is try

I feel so ungrateful biting every hand out

Tryna help me

I can't help but think they don't care

Ive been trying so hard

I can't do this no more why cant i be enough

I don't even know how i can help myself at this point

It's like im trapped i'm stuck up in this vicious cycle

Fighting all these demon without a weapon in silence

All these people wanna help me but they'll never be the right one

I just wanna stay inside and rot away till my time comes

Ive been hoping and waiting but i can't seem to fix myself

These suicidal thoughts just go and infiltrate my brain

This wasn't the way it was supposed to go but it's all down the drain

Ive been tryna get myself together for weeks

Until i remember i'm never gunna be anything

Everything's so pointless i just wanna go sleep

Until i forget it or these pain killers do it for me

The lights go out and i can take my mask off and be me and i cry so hard on my own till i can't say words or breathe

This pain inside of me i can't pass on in the sheets

Still i distract myself with girls and drugs to fill cuts so deep