Playing With My Heart Lyrics

Why is everything so loud i wish that i can turn it down

The voices inside my head saying things that should not be said

Why do i feel so stupid you play with my heart like Cupid

The arrow straight through my heart and suddenly im upset with me

Yea i know we push and pull just like magnets do

But i can't deal with the pain of solitude

So i call your line hoping you won't pick up

But even if you do im just hanging up

I don't know what i want cause im always indecisive

Fighting with myself struggling with all my vices

Living with depression every day's a different crisis

Only feel ok when i hide behind my eyelids

Fast fix numb the pain with the liquor

I never listened to you telling me I'll die quicker

I took all for granted never saw the bigger picture

Now im all alone with the bottle sinking deeper

Love sick thinking about our conitversations

Laying on the bed talking with no reservations

Guess im fucking stupid cause i threw it all away

So ive been cursing Cupid why he made me feel this way

Why is everything so loud i wish that i can turn it down

The voices inside my head saying things that should not be said

Why do i feel so stupid you play with my heart like Cupid

The arrow straight through my heart and suddenly im upset with me

You played my heart strings just like a guitar

Helped me with the pain of all of my scars

Felt like real love but i fucked it all up

Childish and insecure yea i had to grow up

Just a project of a person so i gotta build it up

Didn't mean to hurt you babe i just wasn't good enough

And im sorry that i lied saying we will keep in touch

But i wasn't by your side when your life was getting rough

Heartbroken i keep writing all these sad songs

Without you all my nights are feeling so long

Trying to erase memories of times gone

Heart aches no wait gotta stay strong

Pull myself together need pick up the pieces

Yea ive been broken down but you know that i mean this

Im wishing you the best for regrets there's no room

In the end at least we're looking at the same moon