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It feels like I'm

Flailing under water

So close to breaking the surface

While life above looks like a blur

They say just

Breathe like everyone else

Submerged most of this life

Immense pressures on my chest

If I said my soul was happy

With the way that I survive

If I said my heart knew stability

And was satisfied

If I said my head had clarity

To navigate it all

If I said I had it figured out

Then I was so damn wrong

Just like when I was a little kid

I still make wishes holding my

Breath driving under a bridge

The hope I hold remains paper thin

The hope I hold out for the

Things that haven't happened yet

Old empty picture frames

Hung in dark haunted halls

These fractured floor boards

Just waiting for a fall

Decorated living rooms

For no one at all

This book of matches

Waiting for a spark

If I said my soul was happy

With the way that I survive

If I said my heart knew stability

And was satisfied

If I said my head had clarity

To navigate it all

If I said I had it figured out

Then I was so damn wrong

A painting made for museum walls

Laying under a bed each night in its

Burial ground just like a corpse

Cluttered with what ifs and doubtfulness

An inch of dust don't give it

No god damn promises

If I said my soul was happy

With the way that I survive

If I said my heart knew stability

And was satisfied

If I said my head had clarity

To navigate it all

If I said I had it figured out

Then I was so damn wrong