STILL HURT Lyrics

Been a kinda crazy two weeks

Everything I thought was routine wasn't routine no more

And I turn into a new me

It's scary

Man it started with some father drama

So I turned to the one who I thought would be there

They weren't there, first my pops then my homie

Got me questioning does anybody even care

It's hard when the person I thought would walk with me

Would walk away

When I see them never talk to me

Poisoned heart, man, I'm Socrates

I told them I was not angry

But possibly that doesn't mean the hurt never got to me

From the top to free fall, that's a lot

Just breathe

Thought you were a refuge

Won't hold anything against you

But I'm still hurt

Time to let loose

Time to let truth

Let you know that I'm still hurt

Thought you a refuge

Won't hold anything against you

But I'm still hurt

Time to let loose

Time let truth

Let you know that I'm still hurt

I'm still hurt

I'm still

I'm still hurting

Mourning friendships is a burden

All these lessons that I've been learning

Are they blessings or are they curses?

These days feeling like the worst days

Like a birthday when nobody remembers

This burden is as light as a feather

That is coated in lead

Should I put in the effort?

You always told me that your favorite was distance

Fighting for the friendship through the drifting

And I'm willing to fight for you through the hurt

But I don't even know if it would make a difference

Do you want it to?

I know things are changing

I won't run to you no more

But I think we're both feeling the loss

So if you're up for it, I wanna turn our two Ls to a W

Wish you could see from my perspective

Wish I could see with a bird's eye view

And yes, I'm hurt by the timing

But listen, I'm not hurt by you

Thought you were a refuge

Won't hold anything against you

But I'm still hurt

Time to let loose

Time to let truth

Let you know that I'm still hurt

Thought you a refuge

Won't hold anything against you

But I'm still hurt

Time to let loose

Time let truth

Let you know that I'm still hurt

I'm still hurt

I'm still hoping things will turn out okay

I need you to know by trying to work up the strength to say

"I said that I didn't feel no hurt in vain"

Lose my grip on someone I care about

So of course I'm hurting, just not placing blame

And I don't know what's running through your brain

But my thoughts are racing

Spent hours praying and pacing

Distance part two, three, four, and five have been written in the last week or two

Really hoping that we can move

Past this But even if we can't every time I said you were a blessing

I meant it and still believe it's true

And I'll be hurting for a while cause I care

Hope that was apparent from how I treated you

And I'm not gonna hide it, I'm bleeding too

And even if this is the last thing I say to you

You're a blessing and I need you to believe it's true