will i ever leave Massachusetts? (unmixed) Lyrics

Will I ever leave Massachusetts?

The light hitting the trees makes me lose it

I know I need to go but still

I'm not ready yet

I fall asleep and wake up in the same room

Where I had every meltdown every tantrum

I used to cry myself to sleep

Now I don't wanna leave

And I know I'm not done yet

Could you light a cigarette

And I told myself I'd quit

But I think I'm losing it

Everybody's doing things

I am where I've always been

Don't know how to describe it

Let me try it's like I'm

Happy all the time

I am grateful for my life

But I'm not moving

Should I be moving

I don't eat my dinner at the table

Because every night

My dad would just blow up on me

Now my mom and I we eat our dinner on the couch

Even when we don't watch TV

I think my wildest dreams

Never thought that this is what life could be

Even my wildest dreams

And I know I'm not done yet

Could you light a cigarette

And I told myself I'd quit

But I think I'm losing it

Everybody's doing things

I am where I've always been

Don't know how to describe it

Let me try it's like I'm

Making up the time

Adolescence on my mind

I'm deserving

I'm deserving

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