vent. Lyrics

There's so much love for you right here that you don't even know

So many words that I couldn't find in the same sentence As explored my painful memories

Ironic that here and for you could hold hands and sing that there's so much love for me

Amazing to say the least

Because the most love I could ever have was always reaching out to me

As I brooded

Plotting on who is swindle with my talents and qualities in exchange for affection

I almost feel dumb for how much God has looked over me while I simply looked over my shoulder

On who had more people repost them on their birthday and on who had more instagram tags

I'd forget how the sky would always pose for an evening picture in her golden dress before the night would take her out

And how the sky would smile at me at midday

How the birds and crickets would sing

With the wind and the falling leaves

That me and my friends would use to make memories

To create the soundtrack that on every trying day my friends would remind me of who I was

And go further to remind me of what I mean to them

Because there were days where I was nothing short of unbearable

Days when the anger I had for my reflection spoilt my image

Days when the tears that I drank ruined my breath

Days where my reasons for Joy were awkwardly placed

And my fears were unreasonably strong

Still they stood by me

Even when I thought that they'd leave the first chance they'd get

There was so much love for me that I didn't even know

I'm the home that I shared with my thoughts

Even when my mind screamed in inadequacy

And my heart would always beat me to forgiveness every time

And my lungs would always say no lying breaths

Because my entirety would always beg me to keep going and remind me about how we're special

Just like how Mom and Dad used to say

Just like how my brothers watched me grow

Its just that there's so much

Pain

So much grief

Greed

And so much lust we have for more that we can't focus

On all the people who give their lives

Every lunch break weekend and holiday

To spend time with us

And make us feel loved

And even after all that we forget

That the people we chase

Feel exactly the same