I Am Him Lyrics

I first started this trip with no regard

Felt the scars form, but didn't acknowledge the harm

How many times can a broke man bet the farm

Before his luck runs up, no hope left in the jar

Better dead than a fraud, lets be real with it

Shit mixed up in my head, I cant deal with it

Medicine be the meal ticket, dead but he still kicking

Body lives, spirit shriveled up and real wicked

Alone, the word a battery to me

Perverse views, terse an savage on the beat

But the hope gone, throw songs haphazard at the street

Sit at home thinkin what is happening to me

I'm not actually me, hidden be taking control

The vision dims and I him, able and bold

Unfavorable, what's the word? not a damn thing

Rather sew my mouth shut than keep on rambling

Lookin to the sky like I dare god to strike me

Middle of the storm not scared of all the lightning

It's frightening how little fucks i can give

When the realization hits, still stuck in the abyss

No reflection in the mirror couldn't see what i became

Once again, it's all the same, strife, struggle and strain

Couldn't deal with all the shame, wish i could flush it down the drain

Gone insane, thrown aside, reminder Hidden is the name

Back with the insanity, literal definition

Five years same position, head buried in repetition

Pushing the same vision, foolish, stupid, had to switch it

Full reset, drive wiped, replace the bad ignition

Replays and bad division, missing the math

Extraordinary loss, walk away, ditch the past

Get in the back or get the fuck on, no love song

Only pushing what I want from here on, bitch

I'm moving up, moving on, different avenues

See all this time I was never here, only passing through

I tell myself by day, and then he takes the lead

Puts the train back on the tracks, rolls straight over me

Track after track after track just to see what sticks

Some success flutters, still feel (like) a piece of shit

Something missing, need something different

A new edition, mulling through the decisions

Lookin to the sky like I dare god to strike me

Middle of the storm not scared of all the lightning

It's frightening how little fucks i can give

When the realization hits, still stuck in the abyss

No reflection in the mirror couldn't see what i became

Once again, it's all the same, strife, struggle and strain

Couldn't deal with all the shame, wish i could flush it down the drain

Gone insane, thrown aside, reminder hidden is the name

Hidden is the name

Hidden is the name

Hidden is the name

Hidden is the name

Hidden is the name

Hidden is the name

Hidden is the name

Hidden is the name

Hidden is the name

Hidden is the name