Troubled Lyrics

I got trouble talking 'bout it

Difficult finding outlets

Say I want up out the crib but finding ways to go out less

Viewing everything I do as a muse I can't get out of

True to everything I told you I'd do

I'm used to doubters

Its been my gut I follow

Since I would cruise the impala

Before the issues with momma

Told you I miss you

Not drama

I see they doing what they do for the views

That's not my problem

Not the type to try to keep 'em amused

All for the dollars

I'm still working round the clock

Not out here watching they pockets

Got my own money dummy

Still out here, fucking some commas up

They tried to sell me I'm trippin'

That they been proud of us

Prolly even thinking I'm finished

I keep on poppin up

I got that shit embedded

Messages they were sending

Guess the love was dependent

On whatever they could leverage

But

Got these feelings that I'm still out here dealing with

Still out here feeling that nobody's really feeling this

I lied to every person that I ever gave a fuck about

Said that I'm protective

But realizing I was selfish

Feelings of feeling helpless

What I do isn't helping

Every time I been speaking

I'm anxious I'm overwhelming

I'm pacing but I can't help it

I fake it and try rebelling

Maintain through all my hell

While channeling my aggression

Aiming in new direction

Refraining from old obsessions

Ain't given em no expression

I live by my own discretion now

Won't be chained to your perception

I don't give a fuck

I be low key hating on myself

We need to give it up

Just be tryna tell you

But I guess you didn't listen up

Down for bein better

Cause we both know that I give enough

I just wanna live it up

Buick into a Bentley truck

Useless cause I used to be happy with only 50 bucks

Lately thinking "giving up"

Hope that they'd understand

Say a prayer and I just send it up

Put my faith in his plan

Everyday I'm feeling empty

Waiting for you to get me

Like I used to wait for dad

Said he broke down on M50

Nice to know you still miss me

Know I treated you iffy

Life has been gettin tricky

Keep pivoting like Nowitzki

Shot me down like 50 times

I'm still swinging like I was 50

Senseless mfs that wanna see a reaction

None of this is me acting

Honestly, this is passion

All the L's I took only showing me what I'm lacking

Great for what I have

And I'm grateful for all I haven't

Chase but I can't grab it

Got me thinking that I'm average

And that's a hard thought to manage

Man to be determined by how you acting when it aint happen like you planned it

I managed

I didnt fold

Flow bananas

I know I need some more cameras

I only need me for answers

I need to be what I haven't

I needed me as a parent

Needing me was apparent

You needed all this to happen

But it's been gettin cold

And I'm gettin old

I don't wanna live my whole life alone

I don't want it anymore

Not a problem anymore

I just wanna let it go

I would give it all

Just to give some more

I don't wanna blame my old self no more

Think it's time to let him go

You don't need him anymore

But I need to let him know

That it's not your fault for lying

A product of your environment

I know you miss your father

But know you prolly inspire him

You quiet because you watching

Crying cause you can't stop it

Always feeling so alone

You dying for one to want it

But it's gettin cold

And I'm gettin old

I don't wanna live my whole life alone

I don't want it anymore

Not a problem anymore

I just wanna let it go

I would give it all

Just to give some more

I don't wanna blame my old self no more

Think it's time to let him go

You don't need him anymore

But I need to let you know

That it's gettin cold

And we're gettin old

I don't wanna live my whole life alone

No

I don't want it anymore

But you don't want me anymore

I just need to let it go