Lullaby Lyrics

Every night when I sleep, open eyes and I meet

Deep thoughts, they repeat, lurk lot, like a creep

Long stock at my feet, lips lock 'round a barrel

Keep it taut in my teeth

Like froth, it'll seep, dig deep like a cleat

Under sheets, like a coward in the night, I should weep

I should keep weed close 'fore I sleep

I should peep out from the cover, but defeat

Is locked in, a lover

All my thoughts grime-dipped, in a gutter

And my heart beat hits like a drummer

What the fuck?

I s-stutter, hardship with my mother

Hot temper and a closed fist

I just hit my brother, now we broken

Know I'm on my way to Hell, I already got my token

Fake fuck, mind thinks different from the words that are spoken

Always moping, always hoping, always hanging by my neck on a rope

Always joke, always find it hard to cope, true

People tell me

I'm like my father

I don't see it we just

Growing farther

I'm a kid

Can't grow much longer

I wish I could just be young forever

Little me just, gone forever

They hate us, we should just be gone together

Life would just be fun together, walk all in the sun together

All forever, we should just be gone together

I'd say I just cry a lot, but that'd be a lie, a lotta fake

Cause I am a man, I got a cape

I gotta be, man, it's my fate

It's how society was built, waiting on society to break

The man in the high tower killed, in my dreams and when I wake

Can't say I don't feel guilt when I steal and use and take

I said sorry to the sky when I killed a bird the other day

I consist in constant shame

By myself when I would play

Sit in corners in the night

In the woods by light of day

I put lies in what I say

Say shit fake to your face

Wanted that truth, it got away

Is not new, it was always

I'm not a good person, you could say

Scary to mother, she'll never hug

Yelling and throwing, they call me insane

Into the trees, I runaway

Out in the streets, in a puddle, play

My head is a world of its own in little ways

I can picture the details of a grave

Says my name, and it's far away

I predict my death to be peaceful

It'll happen when I'm old (I should hope)

When it comes I hope I'm told, rather sung

A beautiful lullaby