21 Lyrics

ICU, 21 Beds

Going through a lot like 21 said

It could've been 21 dead

Cause' everybody don't survive, but I'm still here

ICU, 21 Beds

Going through a lot like 21 said

It could've been 21 dead

Cause' everybody don't survive, but I'm still here

I was stressing over money, depressing myself

I ain't let her be there for me, I ain't used to the help

But I was giving her advice, should've been using myself

My attitude was fucked up, can't explain how I felt

Too nasty, not enough NaS, GodSon made his own Hell

Kept thinking bout' my pops, how he locked in the cell

And how my brother got murdered, it's like we destined to fail

But they say pain is love, can't tell the fake from the real

Mmm

Then covid hit me, sat me down

Ventilator breathing for me like I'm not around

I hate to rest, she had to show em' what I'm talking bout' -

Sedation ain't work, I broke the restraints, she had to talk me down

6 days unconscious

Ain't know if I'ma make it, all she could do is watch me

Finally woke up, but on 15 liters oxygen -

Lung infected with all kind of shit -

Regaining my cognizance -

Finding the strength to walk again…

Hearing bout' my son growing up fast -

Tryin' protect his mama, but telling her that he wants Dad…

It broke my heart, just wanna' rush back -

But I gotta' long way to recover and I can't rush that…

ICU, 21 Beds

Going through a lot like 21 said

It could've been 21 dead

Cause' everybody don't survive, but I'm still here

ICU, 21 Beds

Going through a lot like 21 said

It could've been 21 dead

Cause' everybody don't survive, but I'm still here

I'm home now so everybody happy

All the calls, got reconnected with my friends and family

I hugged my son, kiss my lady, grabbed that lil' fatty

When I was admitted, she couldn't visit

So she camped in the parking lot just to feel like she was still with me

But all that stressing had her getting skinny

I almost died 3 times, but kept refusing to

Had to get back to my family and what we used to do

While the Chaplin and doctors tryina' get through to you -

So now she crying, same time, planning my funeral, cause' shit was getting worse…

I remember nights on a futon -

But I thought about, us buying the house, packing the u-haul -

In the hospital now, nigga' down, but I won't too long -

She having sleepless night, if she ain't puttin' my suit on, it's brand new…

But it still felt like me, it smelt like me -

I survived / but in her mind how could she not grieve…

ICU, 21 Beds

Going through a lot like 21 said

It could've been 21 dead

Cause' everybody don't survive, but I'm still here

ICU, 21 Beds

Going through a lot like 21 said

It could've been 21 dead

Cause' everybody don't survive, but I'm still here