inside joke Lyrics

I've always been on the run

Chasing time

Before she catches up with me

But I think I'll get her

Don't look twice

Or you'll remember her

I'm the last of my kind

Yet I see myself in everyone

I meet

Or in my sleep

A passing dream

Or a memory

I'm still stuck on last Tuesday

When you said our love was thrown away

Might as well just toss my wristwatch

Was it real or was it not

I'm still processing all that you said

When you were angry

Wishing you were dead

I guess I thought our friendship

Was worth living for

Am I a narcissist

Or a hypocrite

I'm a stranger to myself

Maybe I should get some help

My own reflection taunts me

While my past's heavy grip still haunts me

So I ask myself

Is that normal

Because life feels like an

Inside joke

I'm not apart of

Last night I stared into my eyes

Too closely in the mirror

Yet somehow when I fogged it up

I somehow saw myself clearer

But what pair of eyes is truly mine

When your abusive voice lingers

Make me question every thought I have

What a clever way of torture

Am I a narcissist

Or a hypocrite

I'm a stranger to myself

Maybe I should get some help

My own reflection taunts me

While my past relationships all haunt me

So I ask my therapist

Is that normal

Cause life feels like an

Inside joke

I'm not apart of

Strangers

Feeling familiar

As I walk closer

To our closure

Street lights

Dance like warning signs

Through the dewy street side-walks

Washing away the chalk dust

The remnants of us

Am I a narcissist

Or a hypocrite

I'm a stranger to myself

maybe I should get some help

My own reflection taunts me

While my past's heavy grip still haunts me

So I ask myself

Is that normal

Because life is like an

Inside joke

I'm not apart of