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This the story of a boy, could've been his last day

Smokin' Newports on the couch, flick it in the ashtray

He was runnin' from himself, he had a bad day

Felt like no one loved him, he was headed down his own path

He was so sad, sittin' through the whole mass

Shootin' prayers to Mary, he was weary, but that's what they taught him

If he's honest, it was autumn when he hit the bottom

Didn't wanna come to grips, he'd hit casinos

Hoped to hit the lotto, full of sorrow, autopilot

It's like he saw the highest mountain, he's too down to climb it

He was cryin' out to God, tryin' to form an alliance

If he gave his strength to David, he could weather any giant

Or any climate, he tried to convince himself that he could stop

Poppin' Oxycontin, he was lyin' time and time

Dodgin' mom, off and on, pacin' round the house

While no one saw a 3AM goin' through a draw

Shakin' violently, while he wants another rush

Smokin' Newports on the way to Indiana, man, addiction's rough

Death by a thousand cuts, man, he can't believe it

He don't even like the stuff, he tryin' to get back to even