Not In Ma Body Lyrics

I just feel like shit's different now

They always ask me if I'm scared to go

I'm like, nah

But I'm gon' die the realest

That's for sure

And if you ain't never heard real pain before

Just make sure you tell 'em about me

I feel like I don't talk about it

Cause it's not in my body

I just rather stay silent uh,

You told me you was all in

Let's not be dishonest

I ain't seen you in my comments

Still no job, still workin' on it

This shit's been on my conscience

Can't seem to get it off it

Money on his head like he Onyx Send 'em youngins' push up on it

They get it done than they gon' call me

I use to call that girl my best friend

Now, her ass I can't stand

Now, her ass got me wonderin' where the love went

They crossed me up no religion

Free my brudda, know it's been a minute

Now, I got the sack ain't talkin' chimney

Hate when I hear them say you actin' different

Like you don't know what happened with me

My heart's been broke by dudes and bitches

You feel this pain, I'm reminiscing

This change was my decision

But still I'm blessed for how i'm livin'

She gon' tell me every time I drown in my ego

They can say what they like, my son thinks I'm a hero

Boy, you gotta earn my respect, it ain't no free throws

And you should know my heart's right on ice jus' like Sub-Zero

Lord, I need some help

I've been thuggin' by myself

Remember times I use to question God for how he made me feel

When he would take my people away from me, it made me feel so ill

Made me take these pills

They locked my brudda' for a drill

You know the streets is real

I always been real

Gon' be a killer or be killed

Need my pockets mil

Been stayin' away from pills

She broke my heart ten-thousand times, I run it up so I can heal

I was down, I was drowning

Nobody around me

I was told when you get money, your friends gon' be houndin'

So I keep that fake shit roun' me

Real ones i'm surrounded

I'm counting 'til I'm countless

She gon' tell me every time I drown in my ego

They can say what they like, my son thinks I'm a hero

Boy, you gotta earn my respect, it ain't no free throws

And you should know my heart's right on ice jus' like Sub-Zero

She gon' tell me every time I drown in my ego

They can say what they like, my son thinks I'm a hero

Boy, you gotta earn my respect, it ain't no free throws

And you should know my heart's right on ice jus' like Sub-Zero

I feel like I don't talk about it

Cause it's not in my body

I just rather stay silent uh,

You told me you was all in

Let's not be dishonest

I ain't seen you in my comments

Still no job, still workin' on it

This shit's been on my conscience

Can't seem to get it off it

Money on his head like he Onyx Send 'em youngins' push up on it

They get it done than they gon' call me

I got too many dependin' on me

I got too many been sleepin' on me

Seen you was active, but you ain't seem to call me

I bet you wish you could, but you can't get it all free

Got two zips up in the whip

I hope that 12 don't stop me

I'm glad you ain't call

I'm too loaded right now

Make sure to hit you back tomorrow

Right now I'm sittin' with them stars

Another hit and I'm on Mars

You know bout playin' with them boys

Don't play with us, boy

You get laid on the floor

I got aim up the score

Grew up playin' with them torch

Who said "family important"?

Cuz I've had family backdoor me