Letter To Julius Lyrics

I don't know where to start

All I know is that I sit here with an empty heart

It's tearing me apart

I look up to the sky and pray that's where you are

And I pray you're watching over me

You know I never lost somebody that's this close to me

That shit is sobering

Kinda feel like Devil got control of me

Kinda feel like God don't wanna listen

Cause if he did all this would be different

Don't wanna question his existence, But I be asking "Why the hell you did this?"

See, I miss my little cousin

I hope that he can hear me, and I love him

I hope that he forgive me for my suffering

I wish I could feel nothing

But I feel it all

I'm trying to stand tall

Or soft land fall

And I wish that I can answer one more damn call

Back and forth with God like a dance off

Jesus take the wheel take my hand's off

Send me where I'm supposed to go

And tell me if I'll ever heal, because I need to know

Cause my body been hurting, my soul is cold

I just want to see my little cousin grow old

voice message from Julius: "yes it's me"

When I hear that shit I break-down

One more day man I wish that you could stay 'round

Take you out, or maybe take you to the playground

Kinda feel like God don't wanna listen

Cause if he did all this would be different

Don't wanna question his existence, But I be asking "Why the hell you did this?"

But I think I see the answer

Probably why you gave my cousin cancer

Probably why you came up with the rapture

Probably why you fill the world with laughter

Just to save him from them tears

He was sick for all them years

Chemo never took away the fears

Don't wish a lot but I wish that you were here

Miss you a lot, nigga, I'ma keep it real

You was still a baby, that shit gonna drive me crazy

If I could switch position's I would tell the God to take me

I got this hole inside my heart I feel it on the daily

I appreciate all the times you have gave me

This ain't my goodbye, it's just a see you later

That don't mean my heart won't tear like a thin paper

But I'll never forget you

Every day I will miss you

Until I see you again, here's the letter I give you

This ain't my goodbye, it's just a see you later

That don't mean my heart won't tear like a thin paper

But I'll never forget you

Every day I will miss you

Until I see you again, here's the letter I give you