Hate Myself Lyrics

Open up the blinds cause it's getting too dark

Feel like I'm living with my eyes wide shut

Carve out my heart like a knife to the bark

It's getting hard to walk knees high in the mud

I'm still looking for a way out

Like I'm stuck in a maze

Mama said it would fade out

And this is just a phase

But how long will it take to get over this pain

When pain killers don't work I'm drowning in the rain

When I got nowhere to turn I just stay up in my lane

When people say they here for you but never show face

Is it just a façade have I fallen too far is it too late God

Is it all the things that I did

All the things that I've done

That got me like this

Got me on the run running from the Lord

Full steam ahead right into the storm

I don't know what to do with myself

I don't know why I hate myself

Feeling like I want to kill myself

But I know that Gods my help

All the pain all the years all the tears that I cried

All the times that I wished that I died

Like all the time far too many times

Thank God I'm alive thank God I'm alive

If it wasn't for Him I wouldn't be here

If it wasn't for sin I wouldn't know fear

Here we go again here we go again

Tying up these loose ends

Man what a year wish my mans was here

Another man down lost another peer

Looking in the mirror all I see is broken glass

And a shattered lifestyle with hope that doesn't last

Maybe I should cut myself maybe I should blast myself

But God I know you love me even though I don't love myself

Is it all the things that I did

All the things that I've done

That got me like this

Got me on the run running from the Lord

Full steam ahead right into the storm

I don't know what to do with myself

I don't know why I hate myself

Feeling like I want to kill myself

But I know that Gods my help