I Love You Boy Lyrics

I Love You Boy - Russ

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I love you, boy

Run before

They kill you, run

I love you, boy

Run before

They kill you, run

Yeah

You grew up in a environment that was hostile and got wild

Arguments you heard as a small child, had an effect

That left you with a lot to undo

Your first words was screamin' at your mom sayin', "Fuck you"

Imagine the visual

Diaper on, already dealin' with the residual

Effects of an explosive father figure was difficult

Momma was miserable

His love felt conditional

You better be perfect, otherwise he'll be hypocritical

Belittle you 'til you nothin', yeah, hurts to listen

And if the parent knew how to regulate the nervous system

That was reactive, mom was fatalistic

No one to protect you, grandfather paid a visit

To take you and your siblings and your momma far away

Twenty-nine years later, she regrets that she stayed

You were doomed from the start, you were hurt and ostracized

There's a wound in your heart, survival mode, you traumatized (For real)

I love you, boy (I love you)

Run before

They kill you, run

I love you, boy

Run before

They kill you, run

Yeah

The monster you created to protect the kid in you is hard to manage

Supreme confidence, deep cripplin' insecurity

The damage that's been done is explicit

And abusive and a critic, nothin' that you ever do is really good enough, is it?

You didn't get validation from your dad so you replaced him with the industry and started to rap

You wanted praise and acknowledgement and picked a profession that people who look like you don't get out of rage of accomplishments

Bein' ignored, the ??? outside force, that you

Yet again, apparently, aren't good enough for

All fueled you, your need to be liked and feel wanted consumed you

That's why you call a chick every night to come do you

Only to be left feelin' less than before

Didn't have the tools to manage stress, you at war

With yourself, you need love

Drinkin' to forget that bein' you is not enough

Overcompensatin' in interviews, tryna prove that you right

Maybe then you'll be liked

Tryna prove you're worthy of approval you weren't shown in your home

I'm sorry that I ever left you all alone

I love you, boy (I'm sorry)

Run before

They kill you, run

I love you, boy

Run before

They kill you, run

Yeah

You deserve a pat on the back and a round of applause

The sound of this song makes you think I'm not proud but you wrong

Look how far you took it, international bookings

You gave your family a cushion

And through the hate, you kept pushin'

Knew you had people lookin' up to you, you held your composure

As hell moved close to you, you a soldier

It's a shock that you were ever sober

I never told you how I feel, I apologize

Lot of guys would've fold, I guess I'm not surprised

You prophesized this from the get go

Anything you wanted, went and got it 'cause you said so

Packs of women fightin' over you like Shevchenko

Seven figure checks, private jets, your best friends know

Your character, you proved that by sharin' your

Successes and blessings, but when you hurt, we hurt

Breakdowns mean that it's time for a rebirth so

You carried me as far as you could go

Now it's time to say goodbye, before I leave, you should know though, yeah

I love you, boy

Run before

They kill you, run

I love you, boy

Run before

They kill you, run