To mom and dad Lyrics

Hey mom, hey dad, how you doin' back home?

I'm sorry I haven't answered, didn't hear the phone

I've been doin' ok, I'm eating and sleeping well

Fuck, I don't want to lie to you, my life has been hell

I'm ashamed of myself, don't want to answer when you call

I'm feeling like I'm weightless, in a neverending fall

Honestly, the thought that I'm coming home is the one

That has been keeping me sane ever since the day I've been gone

Yeah

I can barely eat, or sleep, or do anything

Ever since I came here I've just been burying

Myself, like I've been carrying this weight on my shoulders

How can I leave the house when I'm dragging these boulders

That I don't know how to lose before I lose my soul

I'm barley holding on I'm slowly losing my control

But hey, at least things are good for you, it ain't bad everywhere

Oh, please don't tell me… No, now I'm gasping for air

But where did it go? I can't breathe

All I want is to leave

I couldn't even say goodbye I'll never see him again

I'm sorry for lying when I said I was coming then

And then again and then again and again and again

Goodbye grandpa, I promise I'll see you then

Hey dad, can I talk to you?

I know you're mad at me but you don't know what I've been through

I'm sorry for not responding, it hurts that you're far away

When I'm coming back home I'm hugging you for a day

You're my best friend and I miss you, I wish you were here with me

We could've talked for many hours of all the shit we could see

Can you put mom on the phone? I want to talk to her too

I want to say I'm sorry for being an asshole to you

I wish I could be like you, I wish that I could be stronger

Cause the way that I am now, I can take this no longer

I really, really miss you I want to tell you what I feel

But I'm afraid that once I say it, it all becomes real

It's not all that bad though, I met a girl that keeps me sane

We get along really well, I have nothing to complain

But she really likes it here, I don't know how that can be

But she makes me want to live and that's everything for me

Thank you, for not giving up and for calling

Thank you, for always being there when I wanted

I'm sorry for not giving everything that I've got

But next year will be different, I kid you not