U Don't Even Exist Lyrics

I always fill myself with lies

It's the only way I get by

I rip my heart out just to spite

And smoke my lungs out no I'm not alright

I been healing but I been lonely

I need you yeah you to hold me

But you don't even exist

I'll take a right at the next exit

Going fast I hope I crash

I'm trying not to think like that

But it's been years of feeling bad

Can you blame me that's all I ask

I been trying to heal and lately

Feeling like the only one

I been trying to make it baby

Can you be my overdose

You don't even exist though

I been trying to fake it so

Every time I look in my heart

I see it's vacant though (vacant though)

I stay cautious

Don't take risks

Maybe that's why

I'm still this

And I'm still pissed

That I'm not that

That's just something that I can't pass

Only here for a moment

See a flash and then you're gone

Gotta make this last

Get rid of my past I say it's done

It's a war we had to fight

But no way we could have won

To the victor goes the spoils

Staring down that smoking gun (that smoking gun)

Going fast I hope I crash

I'm trying not to think like that

But it's been years of feeling bad

Can you blame me that's all I ask

I been trying to heal and lately

Feeling like the only one

I been trying to make it baby

Can you be my overdose

You don't even exist though

I been trying to fake it so

Every time I look in my heart

I see it's vacant though