Dear God, (Freestyle) Lyrics

God, I wake up and look in the mirror (the mirror)

But I'm not seeing anything clearer (I'm not)

I'm stuck on the past, I wanna go back

Seeing things I don't want to remember (I see)

I pray against demons who enter

I'm feeling as cold as december

I'm putting me last, need to work on a fast

But I just don't feel like a victor

I feel like a victim, I feel really weak

I'm broken, I still take my heart through the week

I'm talking to walls when I get on my knees

Said some things that I really don't want to repeat

I'm still tryna work but I wanna go sleep

I wanna be gone, I just wanna feel free

I see why Adam ate off of the tree

I know you hear me just listen to me

I'm broken, I don't want to do this

And that's crazy I know I can do this (I know)

I'm stuck on the medicine, stuck on the pills

I'm screaming, like why did they do this? (like why)

I'm crazy, my thoughts feeling lucid

They throw me a pill, I feel stupid

Why don't I know how to heal? I keeping it real

Maybe you think it's stupid

Yeah, maybe you think I'm tripping (tripping)

No drugs, I'm too young to be sipping (too young)

No gang, I'm too young to be cripping (too young)

Suicide, I'm too young to be dripping (too young)

I just hate to sit back and just listen

My PTSD get to kicking

My anxiety come along with it

I'm so far away from the finish

But tell me, like where does it end? (like where?)

Cus I'm bound to go through it again (I am)

And you know I'ma do it again

And you know I been fixing my sin (I have)

I been flying like I'll never land

I been running since I grabbed yo hand (running)

I'm taking a stand, cus I understand

So to end it let me say amen