All My Life Lyrics

All my life I had to

Find a way to see it through

Only way to the top is the scenic route

The fast route that's a path to destruction

Your foundation crumbles you ain't built it on nothing

We've seen many things in life come to an end

The good and the bad even the lives of our friends

Misdirected anger we just hold it within

Really trying to stay alive we've been surviving through sins

Far from heavenly but based in necessity

My goal is to kill those who ain't been protecting me

Got a target on my back cause I'm trying to find a better life

I'm taking yours if you're contemplating ending mine

That's just how it is, don't play with me nigga only God forgives

Yeah only God forgives

I found my way up out this gutter got no time for this

I take this moment to thank my son

For allowing me to participate in his life

And for forgiving me for selfishly contributing

To bringing him into this world

Knowing that I would not be physically present

For important events in his life

All my life I had to

Go get the balance back

And kill myself to better me can you imagine that

Of course not you niggas lost where the passion at

I'm looking up to God I'm trying to call

Like can you answer back

Remember me

I'm your child in need

A child with a purest heart who found a mind of a beast

The one who rose from out the chaos of the gutter with ease

Who's surrounded by them snakes like he in the garden with Eve

But never mind I guess I ain't ringing no bells

I feel like slipping through the cracks the only thing I know well

And all the demons in my path got me thinking you failed

They saying God will lead the way I ask them how can you tell

They say you lost without a purpose I was lost and that's for certain

Heard screams when them hearses came and carried us from churches

All throughout my life I remember people hurtin'

But if you blossom through the pain then I guess it's really worth it

No one showed me how to use my life force to create

Most of the people in my life used fear to destroy

It wasn't until I found myself in a dark cold jail cell

Facing the death penalty

My life without parole at the age of 21

That I quickly learned that I had a choice to make

(All my life I had to)

That I always had a choice