On The Way Home Lyrics

On the way home I became hopeful

That I wasn't the only one who changed over time

But growth is never linear and I can't describe

How broken I've felt most days that I've been alive

No matter how hard you try, nothing will turn out right

All alone, forget the Christmas lights

Open up your fucking eyes

Admitting you were wrong but never in real life

Just in my dreams and the dream has died

Only communicate through silence, conversation deprived

If it wasn't for Judy, I would not be alive

Stopped eating acid, it's like learning to crawl

When life becomes lifeless, the thrill of it all

Slips out of your body and into the past

A deal with the devil won't bring any of it back

Wish there was a version of you that still exists

Like when I was a kid, but no manipulative shit

Thought making me upset with you was better than hating myself

Don't know what to think right now cuz no one told me how I felt

I'm afraid to talk

When no one listens at all

I'm afraid to call

Cause every time I fall

Isolate

Record this shit all day

I've smoked 30 blunts this week

But I still feel insane