The Golden Beetle Lyrics

I really hope I don't crash out

Y'all don't even know the half

Of what the fuck I be facing

What I be dealing with

You bitches don't listen to my music

You niggas don't listen to my music

I know

Cause if y'all did

Y'all would act differently

When it came to me

Y'all would act accordingly, but y'all don't

Fuck y'all

And fuck your mom

And your daddy

For having you

You bitch ass nigga

Hoe ass pussy

I hope that, I do not relapse

For the sake

Of those I helped

Seventeen, I almost died

By the hands of myself

Buddha say

Stop waiting on saviors

Save the world yourself

Leave crumbs in every single song

To slowly, save somebody else

Crabs in a barrel, mindset

Don't work

When you go, in and out

You gone crash out

Sooner or later

If you don't talk and get it out

That's why I rap, why I create

And every day, I spit it out

I'm healing with every single song

I finish

That's what it's been about

I can't keep seeing all this shit

That break your spirit

Thank the heavens I got Buddha

He don't ever let me near it

But I still see it and I feel it

Nigga,

I know that it's near

Anxiety along with hatred

Goes along with all this fear

But I can't make it disappear

I can't make it disappear

I'm so tired of living life

Cause I'm ignored by all my peers

I wanna know why I'm still here

Someone tell me why I'm here

Like Nip said, my grandma dead Cousin too

And they won't reappear

That shit give me chills when I wrote it

Nigga

Chills when I wrote it

Talk aloud and say I love y'all both

In hopes

They heard me when I spoke it

Grandma

You need to know

That the promise is not broken

I'll be on the world stage

Prepared to go, never choking

Serious attitude, bout life

Cause this shit get real, no time for joking

When you're broke, you can't elope

But you got hope

That you'll get rich

Off of bars, verses, created clothes

Shoes

And tons of shit

You'll innovate

And wait for the forces that be

To come

And try to clone, and imitate

But they never could duplicate

Who I am, what I possess

Own, think, And I create

Life is great

Everyday

I'm awoken

Huh another chance for me to make

History

Cause I imagined it

Manifest it

And I chased it

My dreams, now

I'm not impoverished

Angels with me, know I got it

Any crossroads I come to

I'm walking through it, bitch, I cross it

Through the middle

I'd rather go through it

Not cause it's safer

But because

I know, I have to

To grow through it

I hope that, I do not relapse

For the sake

Of those I helped

Seventeen, I almost died

By the hands of myself

Buddha say

Stop waiting on saviors

Save the world yourself

Leave crumbs in every single song

To slowly, save somebody else

Crabs in a barrel, mindset

Don't work

When you go, in and out

You gone crash out

Sooner or later

If you don't talk and get it out

That's why I rap, why I create

And every day, I spit it out

I'm healing with every single song

I finish

That's what it's been about

I sit back and watch you people move

I swear to God

I'm speechless

You think that they love you

And need you

Hell naw

They fucking leeches

Drain your energy

I can tell

That's why you, look down to me

People all around you

Benefiting

From your blatant

Lack of boundaries

But that don't make it right

You gotta know

That don't make it right

When you start to stand up, put your hands up

Cause, next comes a fight

You've changed now, you're crazy

You're somebody that they don't like

As humans, we need to coexist

So you feel

Inhuman, and you cry

Cause you love living

But it's hard on your own

And you wanna die

But you a provider

Of light and love for everyone

So you can't say goodbye

I just bury all my emotions

That I know

They don't care about

I warn the public

I can't be fucked with

Cause I got rage

And I'll air it out

And I wouldn't bat an eye

No one helped me, when I cried

For help

And refuge from my house

Or the chemical imbalance, that I got

Suspicious fluids on my blouse

My brother did it

I woke up and found him

Told somebody

When I was younger

And nothing got done

So sorry, if as an adult

I'm paranoid

And can't have fun

My mind replay, the worst parts

Of my mind

That I can't outrun

Don't hand me no gun

I'm a mental patient

I'd shoot myself, to end this nightmare

Before it ever begun

I'm only still here

Because, I'm aware that I'm the one

And the world need a change, bitch

And Bonaducci, gone get it done

I speak for the victims, nigga

That don't got a voice, bitch

Bonaducci, coming

I'm here

And you ain't got no choice, bitch

I hope that, I do not relapse

For the sake

Of those I helped

Seventeen, I almost died

By the hands of myself

Buddha say

Stop waiting on saviors

Save the world yourself

Leave crumbs in every single song

To slowly, save somebody else

Crabs in a barrel, mindset

Don't work

When you go, in and out

You gone crash out

Sooner or later

If you don't talk and get it out

That's why I rap, why I create

And every day, I spit it out

I'm healing with every single song

I finish

That's what it's been about