DOUBT Lyrics

Sometimes I think I'd be better off dead, this is as honest as I'll ever get

Thought I was cool for a while, I put on a smile, but deep down inside I'm a mess

I already feel like I lost it, when I haven't even gained it yet

Most of the time I'm exhausted, been three nights since I've been to bed

Cause I got all these thoughts in my head, know what it's like living life with regret

You probably don't and it don't even matter, I'm sorry you ain't seen this part of me yet

Most of my life I've been holding my head up, but the weight starts to take a toll

Fear that I'll wake up one day and let go, you knock on my door and ain't nobody home

Cause the pain runs deep and I'm drowning out here in this ocean of lies I swear

I'm gasping for air and I'm screaming for help, but it seem like really don't nobody care

Wonder if someone's around me who feel how I feel, when I look there ain't nobody there

Yeah, why do I keep listening to doubt, doubt, doubt? When I look around ain't nobody round, round, round like

Doubt, doubt, doubt

Why do I keep listenin' to myself, self, self

Hangin' around with demons, they get loud, loud, loud

Wonder if there's anyone who feel how I feel, oh, how I feel oh

Doubt, doubt, doubt

Why do I keep listenin' to myself, self, self

Hangin' around with demons, they get loud, loud, loud

Wonder if there's anyone who feel how I feel, oh, how I

And I thought that the pills that I popped were real

Thought they'd make all my problems heal

All my emotions disappear

One day I took a good look in the mirror

I was disgusted with what I had seen

He threw away all his hopes and his dreams

Started reflectin' on everything

Fell to the floor and I'm cryin', got tears runnin' down

Is this really what I wanna be

See, I was a kid when they took advantage of my innocence

I lost my sister and never got over it

I went from couches to cars during homelessness

I was 130 pounds soakin' wet

Me and my family ain't speak

I've been to detox and treatment so many times

I can never seem to get on my feet

Cause the pain runs deep, you know what I mean

It ain't your fault if you don't

Cause honestly, I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy

Why would I care if I couldn't feel anything

Is this how it ends

What would you say if you came to my funeral

Would we pretend, that everything's fine

The struggle is beautiful

The struggle is beautiful, yeah

Doubt, doubt, doubt

Why do I keep listenin' to myself, self, self

Hangin' around with demons, they get loud, loud, loud

Wonder if there's anyone who feel how I feel, oh, how I feel oh

Doubt, doubt, doubt

Why do I keep listenin' to myself, self, self

Hangin' around with demons, they get loud, loud, loud

Wonder if there's anyone who feel how I feel, oh, how I

Doubt, doubt, doubt

Why do I keep listenin' to myself, self, self

Hangin' around with demons, they get loud, loud, loud

Wonder if there's anyone who feel how I feel, oh, how I