Silent at a Dinner Table Lyrics

Here I sit, beating myself over the head

Cause I know I can win if I just get it together

They're all talking and laughing, my moment's near

Here it comes, here it is but once again I choke

I start to question my value, how much I wanted here

I'm not that fun anyway, so why don't I just leave

Now I'm taking the long way home back where

I can silently sit and suffer alone

I was always there, but I rarely spoke

Now pain's running high and time running low

Can't remember the last time I had fun, it's been years

I'm trying to find the best way out

Here I sit and watch them smile like a clown

But I'm not gonna lie, it kinda calms me down

I can feel their distaste as their eyes land on me

I tell myself it's okay, because soon I'm free

I was always there, but I rarely spoke

Now pain's running high and time running low

Can't remember the last time I had fun, it's been years

I just wanna be normal, so I'm hiding my tears

I was always here, but you rarely saw

I'm just not gonna talk, I don't want you to know

How close I am, it's my final year

I'm trying to find the best way out

Maybe it don't have to be so hard

Maybe it's better just to fade away

You think you know, but you never will

It's all over now, but you don't see

How this mania crashed right into the sea

I just thought of the time when I was a child

I had this fever that never left

But now I see I have nothing to fear

I was always there, but I rarely spoke

Now pain's running high and time running low

Can't remember the last time I had fun, it's been years

I just wanna be normal, so I'm hiding my tears

I was always here, but you rarely saw

I'm just not gonna talk, I don't want you to know

How close I am, it's my final year

I'm trying to find the best way out

Maybe it don't have to be so hard

Maybe it's better just to fade away