When I Was A Kid Lyrics

I left the old me hanging by the neck

Light a candle rest in peace

They spoke like they know best when disgused by the hate it blends so easily

I don't wanna break when they gone bend

Everytime I'm bouta give I land both feet

The pressure just dont end when I need your help please rescue me

Not that long ago

I was just a kid

Putting every single song I wrote in writting from a pen

Passionate but people loved to clown me

Often hate was all around me

But somehow I held it down to get to where I am

I'm fuckin starin at this man in the mirror but lookin back

Is just a shell of my former self

I wonder where I'm at in places I hadn't imagined

Swear I miss that iridescent place I no longer can get to that I built inside my head

But, as a kid, knew I had me somethin different

Watched and listen as my idols dropping dead from drug addiction

But within me is the same exact passion they once were gifted

Never knew how this shit would play out

I wanted fame and all, the money in the world that I could harbor

Everyone to show me love everywhere that I walked

And disregarding all the things that could ever go wrong

Of sitting there on the alter

Watching as we drift farther apart

When lifes hard think I see the bright lights from miles

And you tell me that its over with

The right call translated through the devils smile

That's when you tell me that it's over with

It's my fault life bring me love in horrible ways nobody get it so I'm over with

In my heart find it fesable to fold and break you never listen guess I'm over with it

When I was a kid

I just wanted to blow up like fuck it

Now adays I just want someone who can understand

I was bullied and beat on for nothing

Same people show me love now and I don't understand

I was fouled an outcast from the crowd

And now they catch me around act like we were always friends,

Save the smiles and how you beens when I'm out

You'll never catch me around

But if I was still a kid, I'd, love to see this moment finally come foreal

Tons of people deemed me nothin but a loserboy

Who keep on askin if I want to cheef a blunt or maybe want a feature

Whats the deal with all the universal struggles, what is real

Fake deep with me

In an effort just to say they got to speak to me

Tell some people that we friends

It ain't easily, something you could fucking get

You play teams I see, I swear its like it never ends so

Back then the girls would only fuck with you if you were popular in school

If not then who the fuck are you and

Same bitches see me poppin up in tunes

Recommended on spotify now they in love with you

It's, comical, theses days inside my room

Clichés that seem fake really ain't, it's all the truth

This life is malleable, taking flights to altitudes

They don't want to see you reach, when you land they out for you

I been keepin somethin on me when I notice they be closer

Cuz the pain never stop and the drugs don't go

I see the fake in the smiles in all the girls that hit my phone

I been afraid of the cops so I keep my head low from it

I'm in love losing everyone I knew

I been a awake, been a problem from the drugs I could do

I find the space and the stars when I lay in the yard

Crying praying to god that one day I'll fucking move from it

When lifes hard think I see the bright lights from miles

And you tell me that its over with

The right call translated through the devils smile

That's when you tell me that it's over with

It's my fault life bring me love in horrible ways nobody get it so I'm over with

In my heart find it fesable to fold and break you never listen guess I'm over with it