this is it Lyrics

Fresh off of graduation and I don't even know what to do

All of my friends still in school or they're out with degrees and they do something cool

And me? I mean I teach at a school But

That's only like a day or two

And that could be in a week or a month

I really don't even know what I want

From this life, from this life

I mean I know that I want a wife

And I found one but it's kinda complicated

She don't really know me yet, it's devastating and

Ok I'll be honest, I really only know her from the gram

And we're not even that great of friends

But ughh I just wanna be her man

Okay back to reality twenty two years old and losing my sanity

Thinking about the man Ima have to be

Thinking about the people that I have to please

Thinking bout plans that I plan to achieve

When am I gonna have time to breathe? Or

Grieve ? Or see ? Or ugh do anything?

I guess you could say that i'm having a tough time

I'm painting pictures of a lost mind

It's been a while since I lost mine

But hey this is my life

Thank you for tuning in, Come for the ride

Tryna figure it out, take a step at a time

But all I can tell myself is one line

This is it for me

I hope that this ain't it for me

I mean I wanted to make history

But I think this is it for me

Fuck this is really it for me

I can't believe this is it for me

And I know my fans are pissed at me

Cuz this is it for me

Anybody else feel like they wasted four years on a degree?

Or is it just me? Cuz truly I hate what I've be-come

I kinda feel numb, To anything and everything

Why would I even want a career?

Do the same job for over 20 years

I mean we got people on tik-tok

Making millions off hip hop

Making millions off really whatever they want

Everything just so nonchalant

And if they can do it then why can't I?

Maybe I'm just not that guy

Maybe I don't deserve anything

Ugh there I go getting in my head again

How do I get out of this place?

And back to the regular degular

Cuz this isn't the best head space

I'm always checking my cellular?

Looking for hearts, Looking for likes

I'm even looking for story replies

Really any interaction, Just to give me satisfaction

Something I can't give myself

Cuz I'm jealous of other people's wealth

Worried bout how imma deal with my life

And I'm worried bout how I'll never find a wife

This has gotta be bad for my mental health, I'm in complete disarray

Everything piling up, Stress level rising up

I ain't got much left to say

This is it for me

I hope that this ain't it for me

I mean I wanted to make history

But I think this is it for me

Fuck this is really it for me

I can't believe this is it for me

And I know my fans are pissed at me

Cuz this is it for me